Until I Met You

I was happy until I met you

Fulfilled in the deep sense of the word

Having everything that I might have imagined, but I wasn't imagining enough

I had something, someone to make me who I wanted to be

But in the process I was forgetting who I was

Turning my back on certain Truths about my being

To attempt the image of myself that I had constructed since childhood

I have never been normal

Never wanted the attainable

Never succumbed to the classness of society

But I was happy

Happy with my partner

Happy with my ambitions, my petty ambitions

That fall away from the stalk now like kernels of corn from the ear

On a parched Kansas day in August

I did not want to fall away

Rather, I yearned to keep that happiness wrapped around me like the sheath

Blind to the heat

Blind to the pointlessness

Until you, the free bird that found me, shook the stalk and sent me flying

And where do I fall now?

I was happy until I met you

My love of morbidity shunned

My intrigue about life, old Life, cast aside

You awoke my Truths, awoke me

And where do I fall?

I was dry and did not know it

Hollowed but could not feel it

I was happy until I met you, and we have never even met